Er, hello 2011

So, um, I'm not one for poetry. I don't read it. Except maybe when it's in another language, and then, that makes it a tad difficult. Well not with Latin because I can read Latin, mostly. But I'm not a fan of English-language poetry or poets. And I often feel poetry is egotistical and silly... which may have something to do with the fact that this thing I found on my computer was titled "my shitty poetry." Meaning I have no illusions about this at all. But this blog needs something and I feel like perhaps I do want to write. Write what? who knows. But starting with an edited version of a 3-year-old poem might be okay. I have to some day stop self-depreciating and try something. Even if it sucks. I'll learn to accept criticism on writing as I would a school paper. 
p.s. I like Pablo Neruda and Catullus.

I want 

to be romantic

to write poetry and inspire it

have a muse and to be a muse

to be admired and appreciated 

I want to be painted and drawn

And feel it's right, not egotistical to want these

I want you to want me!

Think I am the most beautiful, never want for another,

but see I am more than my body.

Tell me I am Aphrodite, Artemis, Athena

Tell me I am the only woman in the world,

Who draws your attention so

Tell me how I reflect these goddesses 

Artemis, pure

Aphrodite, sensual

Athena, fierce and wise.

Tell of how you would lay tribute at my feet,

were I a statue, smoothed from white marble

your sweet voice raised in song 

And deny me nothing!

Even as I am high on the pedestal, 

let me be low on the ground;

deny me not my humanity.

Let me love the earth and walk on it,

As I am born from earth and water.

Sculpted from earth and water

Clay hardened by flames 

and cooled by the zephyrs 

Let me be everything at once

All elements as one, as it is to be human

Let me be wrathful and miserable

Let me be joyous, let me cry and smile

Deny me nothing.

As I fly high, let me remember the ground I tread on;

For I am a woman,

and my nature is many-faced.

Let me be strong and let me be weak. 

Let me have the two-sided coin that is life.